Last night, at 10:59 PM CST, I received the parameters for my first short story of the Flash Fiction Contest. I had hesitations enrolling, but now I am excited! And with excitement, also comes anxiety.
Yesterday, I felt burnt out in writing. I was done. I didn’t like anything that I was writing anymore. A lot attributed to that feeling, and I think one of the biggest contributors is the 10 blogposts in 14 days (this is my 6th!). Now, this isn’t a bad thing. It’s good to stretch yourself to find new limits. It’s good to build up that muscle. I need discipline with my writing, because that’s the only way that it is going to get better.
What made me finally crack though was not the blogging. The icing on the cake ended up being a self-validation essay that was homework for group therapy. I feel that I went overboard with this project due to the lack of time I had for others. Everyday I had to write, edit, and publish a whole blog post (this isn’t easy kids). Unlike before, I wasn’t always writing in a state of passion. I had to force some ideas to fruition. It was outside of my comfort zone.
Because I lacked the time to obsess a little with my blog posts, I obsessed a lot over an essay. I treated it like a piece of writing (which it was), and less like a letter to myself. I was stuck in logic mind, no longer drawing on emotion mind for content. I edited that piece to death, and gosh do I hope to death do us part. I have never had the strongest urge to rid myself of a piece of writing. I’m not sure if it is because of what I wrote or how I wrote it. It’s turned into Frankenstein for me. I tried too hard.
So, in anticipation for this first round, I gave myself a break last night. I watched 3 movies, and didn’t even open my laptop. It was refreshing. I escaped a bit. I was able to feel like I can handle this competition.
After receiving my parameters of (you can find my name and assignment!):
Genre: Romantic Comedy
Location: A scene of a car accident
Object: a bag of money
I wrote down some plot ideas I had. Possible ways of including all three aspects together. Eventually, I wrote out two, solid plot lines that I could choose from. They were pretty evenly matched and I even considered writing both of them to have my friends choose between. But, as I slept, and as I got up for the day, I knew which one I WANTED to write. Regardless of how great the other plot line could be, I’m not going to force it.
I have been handling this day well, working on it in spurts, and soon it was done. After telling myself that I wouldn’t edit until tomorrow, I started to edit it briefly. Who knew adding pronouns into their introductions would lead me down the slippery slope of editing??? Me. I did. Oh well (Ha). So, with the posting of this blog post, I’m going to get off my laptop again for the night. Preventing any temptations, delivering us from evil… whoops. Wait, did I just equate technology with evil?? Stay tuned for a religious talk about religion, some time in the next few months.
Anyway, thank you all for being here, and exploring my space. I love that so many of you support me in all of my endeavors. Sometimes, I bite off more than I can chew, and that’s just a part of figuring out how much I can eat. I hope you all are having a wonderful weekend! I’ll let you know how this round goes!