Our first order of business is to go over some ground rules, and fill you in on the purpose of this website.
The goals I have are simple, yet, they are difficult to achieve. It’s going to be work. It’s going to make me uncomfortable, but that’s the point. This is outside of my comfort zone in many ways, and I might talk about that throughout my time here.
The goals are:
- Improvement in my writing
- An outlet
- A source
- A practice
This website is a window into a universe that may seem familiar to some, and completely foreign to others. To the untrained eye, this is a vast space that is filled with nothing. It is lifeless, dark, and uninhabitable. This space is my perspective.
Those of you who have known me for a long time may think that you know this space. And, yes, you will know some parts. However, you may be surprised at other parts that you did not know about. Please, utilize this source as a means to find out more about me.
Those of you who haven’t known me for a long time, I’m not as worried about what you may find on this website. You have come into my life more recently, and you are in my life by choice. I hope you will read this with a mindset that you are ready to learn more about my perspective, and what I have been through.
I anticipate this window potentially being a scary ordeal for both myself and others.
Reasons you might be scared:
- Too dark for your liking
- A bit too intense or open about how I may be feeling about a situation
- New and overwhelming information that you previously did not know
- Not being used to the raw emotions, honesty, and openness
The truth is… only some people are cut out to be astronauts in this space. Not everyone can be an astronaut, and not every astronaut can handle this space. Again, that’s okay. If you find that you are not cut out for it, please know that I still would love to have you in my life. I don’t expect everyone to read this, but I do expect to see you at that next shindig of ours.
So, to sum up some disclaimers:
I will curse, maybe like a sailor, or a pirate, it’s just going to happen.
This is a space that is infinite, dark, and largely unexplored. Typically, no life can exist in this space. However, this is your spacesuit.
If I should post anything that scares you, please try not to be alarmed. Know that I am posting as a form of education. I am simply giving you a window into my perspective, and in no way should you worry. I have a support system. I have a therapist. I have spent many, many years in this space. If you are truly worried, reach out to me. I want to be here for your journey as well.
These are all things that some people are trained to handle, and you may feel unqualified to even try. That’s okay. You don’t have to read any of this! This is a choice you can make! Feel empowered!
This is my invite to you. Please allow me to be vulnerable and true about my perspective. Please allow me to be heard. This is a safe space for me to talk about a space I rarely get to talk about. This space is filled with dark, but only because there is light as well. I will do my best to articulate, and keep this space a learning environment. As you read, I hope you find a renewed sense of appreciation for both the light and dark in your own space.
Best of luck out there, astronauts!